I could be feeling an affection for some unknown idealistic lover. I could be in denial. But I do know, that I still feel something. I want to see her happy. I want to see her succeed. I want to see her.
I excluded myself from her life because I thought it'd be less painful. I was probably right... but this still hurts.
I just want to feel that again. But this time with somebody who feels the same way. I just want to be happy every time I think of her. I don't care about money. I don't care about a house. I just want somebody who I can spend time with.